Today is a bad mommy day.
What I mean by that is that today I feel like a horrible mother.
I know in my head that is not true, but that does not change what I feel. I love my kids more than anything in this entire world, and I feel like I am failing them. They went to the pediatrician today for their well check. They both have not grown more than a few ounces in 2 months. They were already too skinny, but now... I don't even know. The doctor says they are fine. That they are thriving and hitting all their milestones, but they are just skinny. That should make me feel better. It doesn't.
I feel like it is my responsibility to feed them, it's my breasts that they get their food from, so if they are not getting enough calories, isn't it safe to assume it's my breasts to blame? I know that's not true, it's most likely just a fast metabolism coupled with genetics, but that doesn't change the thoughts going through my head. On top of that I bumped Oliver in the head with the coner of the wall. He screamed out instantly band within seconds was calm again. I can't even find a mark. None of this makes me feel any better.
I still feel like a big, fat (literally) failure...
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